The Checkmate Truth.

By: The Infinite Isabella💋

I can’t forget you

Does that mean it’s True…

That thing that you said with your eyes

Instead of your lips

As you held onto my hips

That be-came my Torture’s demise

That thing you made me real-eyez

That was only confirmed when I demanded our current “good-bye”

You made me wake up to this betrayal

The one I met with myself

For I can’t seem to blame anyone else

Because even though I’m here naked and sweating in my bed without you

Thanks to this emotional emptiness I think I know what to do…

I grab my phone at 12:53 am todae to ring out my Heart’s Truth

The one I was met with the day I was with you

In that dorm room

When we thought you where just a bit over 22

The one where you taught me how to play chess

The one where you made my hair a mess

The one where you respected my celibacy and the integrity of my pretty blue dress

The one where you had me hold Romeo before you instead

But not without giving me a temporary tattoo of your love bite marks

The one where we lost my left cherry earring on your orange shaggy rug

The one where we cuddled to my music you said you liked as you made me feel safe and snug

The one where things began to start

You know before they fell apart

The one where before we allowed ourselves to part you asked me if I felt safe back there in your arms

The one where before I drove off and left

Even though I might never see you again

You reminded me that you know how to be a complete and total gentleman

One deserving of a confident direct observant woman

For you know exactly how to make me feel heard

Even through telepathic whispers of what I feel I deserve

The one where you made me wake to inspired Truth

A Truth I could only face thanks to you

That:

“Love makes you feel like everything you experienced in Her (Life) before Love be-came your purpose was the very purpose itself…so you could be led to Her (Life’s) Truth. That you are and always have been ready for you to face Yourself in another’s eyes that stare back at you with that very same Truth thus making it all your previous Lies’ final demise.”

I suppose that’s why right now I feel something dying inside

Since I demanded our urgent good-bye

For that was what you told me when I felt at least for a moment that I was yours

It’s the only Truth I can secrete from my moments of passion through my pores

As I pretend I am yours

As I allow my moans to whisper your name behind closed doors

But of course like all else that terrifies me in Life I had to let you go

But not before I let you know…

That I do want what brings me Terror but only if it leads to Pure Bliss

To allow yet another Fall of Faith but this time in your honor in hopes of something better I hope I dare not miss

A Life without you…

Guess your actions or lack there of will tell me what I must or mustn’t do

To return to you or allow you to be forever young

If that’s the case it doesn’t erase…That you are…and might forever be the One.

EOT 1:23am💋

4.3.25h/1th