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By: The Infinite Isabella💋
Are You Ready, #5w33tH#ART...
Dare to Be.
The Very Ecstasy of
Truth, Love & Life.
I am pleased you made it here sweetheart. It's my honor to guide you and help begin your personalized individuation process and paradigm shift into your Dream Life.
I am a skilled spiritual life coach and Conduit practitioner that is extremely passionate about creating a Holy Sacred Space individually tailored to You and your ambitious life goals, so you can experience Heaven on Earth through your D.O.A.G (aka Desired Optimal Ambitious Goal aka: Dream Life) along with the necessary tools that you will need to develop and strengthen the necessary qualities for you to confidently create that dream reality.
​I'd like to start by sharing my personal journey along with why I am completely committed to seeing you live out whatever it is you define as "success", "happiness ", and "fulfilment".
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Please note, that the original "unedited" version of this was written in April of 2024 *h. Thus, in order to preserve the integrity of what I perceived as my reality of these early experiences, I maintained the integrity up until the section titled "**The Era of GoddX". The rest I updated as I deemed fit as of the "Time Stamp" that follows this paragraph.
(12:13 pm. 2/21/2025 h.💋)
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-The Infnite Isabella💋
My Journey to Ecstasy
I have always had an inclination towards searching for the meaning of life so I could then live it out purposefully and in alignment with what truly brings me to wholeness, love, happiness, peace, and freedom. I've also always had a passionate calling to help others discover and then merge with their truth, empowerment, & GoddX Source (AKA: Your Higher Self, The Universe, Source, The Cosmos, The Embodiment of Love in Its Rawest Form, God etc.). While this has always been my natural inclination and driving passion, it was enhanced due to my upbringing.
1990s
The Early Years...
I was born and raised into a strict religious background that resulted in daily study of religious doctrines and rituals including, but certainly not limited to, going door to door every weekend since I could fathom my 1st words as a toddler. We were taught that our intention was to unite people as a community and connect people to "God" and a dream life that could only be reached if you put "God" above all else.
The idea of putting "God" above all else was so fundamental in their doctrines that ever since I could hold a conscious conversation, my mother, with the greatest of intentions would sit me down and ask me "If I was against God's doctrines and "truth" who must you choose to have in your life, me or God?" "I choose you Mommy!" I would say, and she kept correcting me.
She said that if I was ever to be put into that situation, I had to choose God. I remember thinking to myself that the right choice was family and love, but in order for her to stop asking me the same question over and over again, that didn't even make sense to me in the first place I would just respond "I'd choose God". Little did I know that that would one day become a choice I'd be faced with, so I am eternally grateful for this lesson. Funny how things come full circle like that sometimes.
I feel inclined to disclose that I am aware that the term "God" can be both controversial and triggering for many individuals. That is neither my desire nor intention. The reason I use this term over all the other terms that, in my humble opinion, can perhaps be best described as the Infinite Source Consciousness, is because my personal journey led me to my personal understanding that "God" is not an individual in the sky that is judging us, rather, The Collective, as "One" experiencing Itself "outside of Itself". It used to hurt me tremendously that while I had an emotional connection to God, the "God" they described didn't feel at all like the God that I could feel in my heart, but it was my only connection to it, so Little Me ran with it and did her best to accept it as her "truth" even though it hurt.
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Luckily, they did teach that God was Love and when I connected to Love it felt like home, and for this I am grateful.
It wasn't until I asked myself in 2019 "Who am I outside of this religious organization, that has consumed my identity? Who would I be? What would I believe in? How would I see the world? Would it be better than the agony I was feeling? Because it hurt so... much. For that place had consumed my entire life with the promise that if I neglect myself "now", if I ignore my heart and hate myself "now" (while smiling of course so we could convince other's with our "joy" that this was the right place to be), I would be lucky enough to die and wake up to a happy perfect reality filled with self-love along with everyone else for all eternally that overcame such an obstacle with their faith. I asked myself who I would be without these imposed beliefs that I was forced to "agree" to just so I could survive".
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For you see, I did mention my concerns to my parents in 1999, as a 6-year-old. We had just come from service which ended around 9:30pm, and I couldn't help but contemplate on the car ride home how everyone at service seemed so convinced and passionate about what was taught there and accepting it as "Truth", yet I simply couldn't accept it. My intention of voicing my doubts was in hopes of becoming as convinced and passionate as them.
In response, to my concerns my father led me to the kitchen door that led to the back patio and said "You need to believe it and be happy about it because it's True, and if you don't it's as if you are dead to us. You no longer have a home here and you need to figure out how to be on your own, to clothe, feed, house, and survive without us. Figure it out." and locked the door behind him. It was after 10pm on a warm summer night when this happened, I remember the night sky. I remember panicking and feeling dumb for daring to ask such a question and questioning if I should have explained my intentions better, or if I should have asked in a kinder way so he would understand that I really wanted to believe just like him.
I then started to wonder where I should sleep for the night. It was challenging and terrifying and I had no idea, not only because of my age, but also because the religious organization was incredibly strict in not allowing its members to form any friendships nor emotional ties with anyone that wasn't a member or at least in the process of becoming a member of the organization, so I couldn't think of anywhere to go.
I don't remember how much time passed while all these questions ran through my head as I sobbed and filled Little Me with self-hate. It may have been 5 min, 10 min, but no more than 15 min, yet that moment was enough to make me never question my faith again...or at least for another decade or so. What can I say my curiosity has always gotten the better of me. ;)
What I do remember, was my father eventually opening the door and saying with a stern face, that what they taught was "True", and that this lesson was an act of love with no actual consequences now, so I could avoid suffering real consequences in the future for allowing myself to doubt their "Truth".
This is why I use the term "God", because it used to hurt and sting when I would hear that term, for memories like this, but after I took back my truth and developed my own personal relationship to Love Source "God", in spite of how far they tried to keep me from it by their portrayal of "God", they couldn't.
As a result, that term reminds me of how natural our connection is to Love and how no one can keep us from it if we don't let them. I'm so happy I healed this beautiful relationship to God, and I'm so proud of Little Me and her courage and how much she endured, and I send her love every day, I'm so grateful she feels safe each time I connect to her.
2010s-2020
First Steps to Freedom
I received my high-school diploma at 16 through homeschooling, but seeking a higher education was highly frowned upon because "the new world was coming, so why make a living on this earth when it's going to be gone at any moment?". Also, they needed us to continue to share their propaganda, so "I shouldn't waste my sacred time on worldly ambitions".
Life happened, and from 17-27 years of age I would continuously enter and leave the religious organization, but always ended up returning because I told myself I "just needed a break", but I also desperately wanted to do "the right thing" even though it was incredibly challenging and felt so unnatural.
When I would leave, I would make huge life impacting decisions from a place of self-hate with the conscious intention of punishing myself for not doing what was "right" and lived out several consequences as a result.
Luckily in 2020, a series of events led me to reach my breaking point and I officially decided to leave the religion and never return. As a result, I knew I had renounced my ability to have any form of contact to anyone in my family or community, other than my husband at the time.
I remember driving as I prayed to "God" and said "I'm so sorry, you know I tried, but I can't. Yet, I also know that if it were "true", it wouldn't be this hard and unnatural. I know I'm loving and if that place were "true" it would be filled with Love, but it's not. I'm so sorry if you feel I'm failing you, but its only because you failed me first in spite of all the chances, I gave you to prove me wrong about that place. I really do love you and I know you can feel it, if that even counts for anything for you. Good-bye old friend."
The Pandemic Through Infinite's Eyes...
It was the beginning of the pandemic and I had been working in my father's business as his office manager, so renouncing to my family meant renouncing to my job as well. I made it my main focus to find my "forever job" one with good hours, opportunity for career advancement, lucrative pay, and overall, a healthy work environment. I went to a tarot reader in a crystal shop once I had a few job offers to choose the best option. I told the reader I needed to choose my "forever job" and everything she told me would unfold, did exactly as she said, but she also mentioned that the cards said neither one of these was going to be my "forever job."
A few weeks later once I was settled into my new job and the new place we had moved into. I prayed in my heart "I still feel empty and without purpose. Please show me the purpose of life, I want to open the lines of communication with You and only You. Teach me "truth" through life experiences, I don't want to believe anything ever again just because someone told me it's "true", because "truth" is sacred to me and the center of my heart's purpose, I can FEEL it in my bones. Let's make a deal. I will pretend to be as naive as a newborn and believe only what you put in front of me. I will do this only for one year and based on what results, based on what I feel, I will decide after a year if to continue this personal one-on-one communication with you. I give myself permission to have faith in You with a clean slate. Let's see what you do with that. I don't know who I'm talking to, but this is directed to Life, to Truth, to Love. Teach me. I am listening and I am open."
Ask & Receive... But Only if You Dare to Believe
This prayer has resulted in 4 years of solitary meditation and a profound study of energy, consciousness, and quantum physics among several other topics that I was called to research. My life has taught me that "God" is "always watching", but It is not watching to judge nor condemn you. It is simply so "God" can see what it would look like if it where "you". For example, when God decided to reincarnate as "Isabella" It asked "What would life look like if I thought my complete and only reality was what Isabella believes. She will only believe what she experiences, and I want her to experience "XYZ" only so she can gain a particular perspective on life and I want to observe how she comes back to me from there. I will have "her" experience "XYZ" so she can expect this reality to be the "only reality available" and she is "God" so whatever she truly believes will be what "is" because that is how the Universe, that is how "I Am" and she is me for we are "All One" I just want to watch and see how "I AM".
I learned that God is simply curious to find out the answer to this question "What if I where you?". No matter what transcends along the way, its ok because back "home" It is safe and whole and will always return to that state no matter what has to happen for that to result again. There are many phases after the human experience to integrate the lessons learned while taking on your perception, but it always comes back "home" and re-members Itself whole.
It knows it is safe, just as an artist can paint a self-portrait of themselves melting into fire, and simultaneously be aware that their body is physically intact, even though what is being reflected on the canvas is something of its own creation. Their body melting on the canvas is real art. It is simultaneously true and not true, depending on which body you are referring to, the one on the canvas or the one painting the canvas. The self-portrait is safe, for it is what it is meant to be, an expression and extension of the artist's emotions. In reality the piece of art doesn't suffer. It was destined to be art and thus is realizing its purpose by simply existing and is inherently worthy of being seen in awe by its creator and other's that see the beauty in it. We as humans are much more complex or at least we think we are, for we struggle with self-acceptance and re-membering, but that's kind of the point. Luckily, God knows that It is ok to be "limited" and "challenged" or at least to think It is, because in reality It knows it is Infinite, and thus there is literally no wrong answer in how it expresses Its existence in Its perception of YOU. I will repeat that. There is no wrong answer. For you see when you are All you are Nothing.
For example, talking and walking for many may seem like no task worthy of praise, however once upon a time, it was celebrated because you "Re-membered" how to do it and experienced it for the 1st time in this reincarnation and perspective of the "limited" version of you. While in reality we are All the All, including everything that holds consciousness.
My study of the language of energy and consciousness supports that we are all a micro-cosoms (AKA: the cosmos in miniature "form") with its Infinite power and abilities laying dormant within us. I came to the realization that we are here to experience the illusion that we are a "part" of the sum, so we can "Re-member" ourselves "Home" to our own natural talents, desires, and Dream Life.
All GoddX wants is for It to experience its "dream life" if it had several different "dream lives" simultaneously through omni-presence. That's why we are all meant to have different dream lives.
Would you like to see the same color everywhere? Probably not, most of us love a colorful life filled with a variety of tastes smells and other sensations. Trees, animals, elements, extradimensional, planets, veins, organs, humans, etc. (everything that holds consciousness) all have a higher-purpose, and your biggest desire is the map and compass to what your purpose and highest-timeline is.
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That desire is atomically blessed to be a reality, because GoddX passionately yearns to see what the journey to achieving that sacred "destiny" is. You are literally blessed and destined for success. You are co-creating with GODDX, but we as humans have free-will, so while the timeline in which we live it out does exist out there somewhere in the "future" it can only be lived out if you take action towards it until it becomes your reality. In fact, I dare to say that it is your sacred mission to live out your truest most passionate dreams.
My desire and calling is to serve "me" outside of myself, by serving You, so you can create that reality. Your empowerment empowers me and fulfills me, so thank you sweetheart. Your ego desires that moment of "success", however, your soul and "GoddX", which is simply All of Us, as "One" in the complete and total embodiment of Our optimal balance, potential, and power, desires to witness your journey created through the execution of your free-will to achieve it. That is why it is your sacred mission to live out your truest of truths and your most passionate calling which you and only you know. My personal calling is to hold sacred space to serve you and watch as your glow into your most radiant light. Why?
2014-2024
Until (Obsolete Ego) Death Does Us Part Sweetheart...
It all started in 2014 when I had the honor of meeting someone with whom I would come to enjoy a harmonious 10 yr. marriage with. He inspired me to go in search of self-love because, honestly, seeing how profoundly he loved and respected me each and every day motivated me to go in search of it in hopes of loving him back the way he deserved. I confess that when I first embarked on my personal self-love journey that would eventually become my individuation process, I didn't even do it for myself, it was only for him.
When I decided to quit my corporate "forever job" in June of 2022, he passionately agreed to support me in every way he could, so I could dedicate myself full-time to my Individuation process, because it was a calling I couldn't deny after everything I learned the years prior. I admit that this was incredibly difficult for me because I had always held down 2-3 jobs since I was 17yrs old to deem myself "valuable", independent, "worthy" of self-respect, especially since self-love was not a familiar feeling at the time, and honestly to distract myself from my inner dialogue telling me everything I had "done wrong" and "continued to do wrong". That year, in 2022, I allowed myself to completely dissolve into pure "nothing". My body was completely exhausted and there were days I couldn't even get out of bed. This was terrifyingly difficult for me. I felt scared and guilty for not being able to have a job because now I was truly "worthless". Luckily, I remembered what my mother told me as a girl. "Happiness" is not something you can chase; it is simply the consequence of your actions. I also knew that I had a once and a lifetime opportunity to define and set up the parameters to what would produce MY Happiness. "I will be happy if..."
So, what did I want to make me happy? I wanted to be happy for showing up for myself, whatever that looks like. Even if I need to stay in bed and have "nothing" to offer myself other than my conscious effort to be patient, kind, caring, loving, considerate towards what I was going through, and feeling inherently worthy of it. I also, new I needed to continue to surround myself with Love and invest even more time into truly listening and learning how to read energy, so I could be guided and follow only the truths whispered by nature and entities that are aligned with Balance and Love. After all, I couldn't allow my husband's faith in me be in vain. Thanks to the sacred space and patience he lovingly and proudly provided me with, I was able to enter, confront, and overcome my darkest demons through my Dark Night of the Soul (AKA: DNS). It was on this journey that I was able to completely dissolve into my rooted bones, to the point where I had nothing left to "give up" or so I thought.
Daring to Let Go of "Home"...
I remember saying to my guides "he's the only piece of me I'm never willing to give up". How could I when he was my Home and the only human in my life that dared to stay by my side up until this point. Everyone else left, but he stayed. Yet, during my journey I soon began to realize that my husband and I could not remain together if I was going to continue down my path and follow my calling. We were incompatible in things we considered fundamental for a marriage. We were each put in a position where we had to choose our own truth or our marriage. Thankfully, our love has always created a safe space to be openly transparent. I remember one conversation in particular that was very defining during this challenging transition. He said "I understand, but I feel like you lied to me. You are nothing like the person I met, and this makes me feel betrayed because I feel like you lied to me." I said, "I told you who I thought I had to be. Who I was forced to be. Who I thought I was. I was lying to myself, but as soon as I found Me I told you immediately, but I understand what you mean, so I do feel the need to apologize."
I will always remember that conversation, because it shattered my heart completely into infinite pieces...and yet allowed me to see myself clearly through the cleansing of my tears. As a result, I vowed to never again lie about who I Truly Am. Especially, to myself. Regardless, of how it may be perceived or received, so long as I make a conscious effort to deliver it from a place of love and respect. He taught me the value of that. He also taught me to surrender, to allow myself to be taken care of, to trust that I am worthy of unconditional love and respect outside of myself, just by mere existence, because I am loved. Yet, perhaps one of the most valuable things he taught me was the importance of being able to experience an inviting warm loving Sacred Space and spiritual support to rely on so I can allow myself to completely unravel naturally and Re-member myself. There were so many nights, during 2022 - 2023 that he would help me move and transmute energies and old wounds that were ready to be healed, because he too has Shamanic abilities. He was the reason I was inspired to become a resource and a holder of Sacred Space for You so you can find Your Truth with unconditional love, kindness, and understanding, so you can be inspired to show up for yourself as You deserve.
**The Era Of GoddX
The Goddess That Led Me Through the Shadows...
I understand that there are days that we don't want to show up for ourselves, because before my DNS I was in a place where even facing myself in the mirror was an excruciating challenge. I didn't want to look into the eyes of the person that kept betraying me.
That's when I turn to my inner Goddess aka Future Me and serve H3R#. When I can't for "me" I do it for "H3R#".
Luckily, another fundamentally important conversation is one that I had with The Goddess. During one of my darkest DNS moments in August of 2022, I remember saying "Please, I trust you. I honestly don't know why yet. I'm just called to trust you. I've come too far given up too much not to. So please, keep allowing me to face this pain, ALL of my pain. All of my darkness. Don't hold back. I know I can take it, but in turn I want you to take care of me. Make this worth everything I surrendered. Show me kindness, show me love, show me luxury, show me warmth, show me TRUTH, show me abundance in all great things, show me patience, show me greatness, show me passion, show me freedom, show me confidence, show me ecstasy, show me strength, show me that I am inherently worthy of these things and more, and I promise, I forever vow that the way you treat me through all this... is how I will treat others that I serve so They can face their Dark Night of the Soul with less pain and more hope, trust, freedom, and love than I am right fucking NOW! I can take this. but. give. me. THAT. I demand it."
My DNS journey led me to have a powerful intimidate and deep connection with all of my facets, my Inner Child, TH3 Goddess my Body aka: Temple, my Inner Guidance System, Love, Life, Truth, Mother Nature, and my spirit team. I also learned to communicate with all beings that hold consciousness and consult them when I need wisdom and guidance.
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I learned to trust what sister Moon whispers to me only once in the dark, than what has been screamed and demanded to be received as "truth" in the light.
I learned to face and accept my shadow aspects and how to keep them balanced and in-check, through love, attention, and discipline. I learned to adore the pieces of me I once hated the most. I learned what I need to thrive. I learned to dream with confidence. I learned to be fearless. I learned to trust myself. I learned to love myself with a love deemed worthy of Th# Goddess.
I learned that whatever my "D.O.A.G." (aka Desired Optimal Ambitious Goal aka: Dream Life) is, may be someone else's biggest nightmare. I learned to see the beauty in that. I learned that I'm curious AF to see what the world would look like if we ALL felt that way.
I learned that I want to serve as a bridge to others that are ready for themselves to be loved and adored by themselves as TH3 GoddX that they are, so I can inch myself towards seeing that reality.
I learned that we are all One, so me serving others as a resource so they can Re-member themselves to the point of be-cuming their Higher Selves and the pure ecstasy of life, is the same as serving Th# Goddess I AM, so I follow that calling as my personal passionate mission to please H3R#.
I learned that there is no D.O.A.G. (aka Desired Optimal Ambitious Goal aka: Dream Life) too big, nor no mountain too tall to climb, so long as you take action to climb it and focus on one step at a time at your pace.
I learned to pray every morning to Th# Goddess, that I AM, "May what I desire to do today, may every action and choice I execute throughout the day, be what you wish for me to do. So, I don't have to doubt myself. May it create my path of least resistance, so I can continue to trust ME and follow MY heart no matter what happens throughout the day, or what I may have to confront. Just place it there and I can handle the rest. I promise."
I learned to dare to be cum. I learned to be the sacred seed that I planted into myself to birth the True Me as a result.
This led me to feel like pure Ecstasy, to the point of mirror gazing into the eyes of the person that I once couldn't bare looking into. She is now the person I most love in this world. There are nights serenade I Her under candlelight as she cries in pure bliss and gratitude because She knows what it took for me to find Her, and She was fucking worth it all, infinite times over.
​I learned in these candlelit moments of intimate self-love why My Future Goddess Self keeps allowing herself to forget through infinite reincarnations and parallel lives. It's so She can simply continue to Re-member infinitely through time and space, through echoes of several perceived lifetimes, how to fall passionately back in love with Herself both inside and outside of Herself, through me... through YOU... though ALL of US. I learned accept and adore Love, Truth, and Life unconditionally in all of their combined and separate polarities and accept everyone equally just as they are for this very reason, for we are all One.
So, what about you? What would you look like if you dared to be-cum the very ecstasy of Life, Love, and Truth?
Oh W3'RE Not Don3...
(...) just yet, Sweetheart.
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My Infinite Autobiography continues through My...Our "The Infinite Note-Book Series"...
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"Omega- Infinity"
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New episodes through the "The Public Announcement Series" were re-leased every #28th as of Feb, 28, 2025 *h. (*his-story which dared to cum before "The Her-Story aka: TH.) while I work on the "Rub!5lipper 5.eries" "My Poly L!f3" "The Book of Lili(th)." "behind the veil" which is exclusively for members...for now at least.
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#Be..Ready...
-The Infinite Isabella 💋
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The raw seed that be-cum's True Sparkly You.
The Devil's Dream...
"What are sparkles, but the cosmic dance between darkness and light? I dream of a sparkly world..."
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-The Infinite Isabella 💋
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